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BORRRIIIINNGG NYERRR....
Beeen awhile since i last blog...
You know what, i feel uncomfortable blogging now compared to last time...

Last time i used to blog wateva i feel like blogging FREELY... but NOW...
its like i have to write something i feel is expected from others...
Like..... i wanna act smart in front of my friends like Darren, yen, jord, and others and also i dont wanna lose to that stevo supremo...
Typical peanng boy --> kiasu..

Its like a psychological term called observer bias.... I tend to act according to expectation from others.. What nowadays people call drama...
Not only here, in life as well... not just me... many people does it too... its an inherited instinctive survival act of adaptation *fuhhhhhhh! Darren! Beat that punk!*
i guess = ="...

Dont cha think so? In our lives, things we often do or say are mostly based on people around us..

When you see a HOT CHick... You dont go : Hello there, u are smoking HOt.. Phewit...
You'll probably : *act cool* turn to her then turn away... When she comes near.. U'll try to speak louder to ur friends or crack a random joke.. = ="

(shit, come to think about it, its my tactics.. kinda lame!)
or

When you are in driving in the car with ur mom, you dont speed... and nearly hit something you dont go shouting : Le ma Stupid farker dunno how to drive ar? Blind ar? eyes at buttock ar?
You might say : aww, pity that uncle... i was probably in his blind spot...
or
With your friends, when they expected u as macho and brave...
Things that you probably wont say : I dont wanna go up that roller coaster.. damn scary OR yerrr that toilet has got so many insects...

Try to imagine, if erasing everyone you KNOW or even met before in this life of yours...
What are you?
seriosly, what am i without people around me.. The decisions i make in my life probably different..
*if u realized, i use the word probably quite often*

Everything change every moment, now me and later me is different.....
Different doesn't mean completely different --> Junior A to Steve B .. *NO*
I may have certain preference towards something now, maybe after writing this, it changes....

The reason why i bring this up is, i found out that people are too attached to everything.. (me too)

Thinking that things are always the same...

"If you like something, like it to the fullest at that moment, but don't bring it to the next.Let the feelings in the next moment tell u what to do." - Junior Boy